holosophy

Further Conversations with God:

Circa the beginning of the new millenium….

I’d like a different title, perhaps something a little more humorous, or witty?
I gave you “The Gloves are Off”
But that sounds like a reference to boxing, which hardly seems fitting
How about “In for a penny, in for a pound”
Sounds like “May as well die as a sheep as a lamb!”
Perhaps we should just stick with FCWG
Perhaps
Never satisfied, are you.
I guess that’s my problem, or at least one of them! Nothing ever seems quite right, or quite good enough.
That’s because you never seem quite right or quite good enough (to you)
Why is that?
Ego
What am I trying to prove?
Importance
Why is that?
Because you’re frightened you’re not important
Why does that matter so much to me?
Ego
Oh come on now, we’re just going round in circles
Spirals
So where did my measure of how good or how important I should be stem from?
It’s your payback
That sounds like karmic dues, which I thought you said didn’t exist
They don’t, this is just your idea of what you have to do and be in this lifetime to “compensate” for “what you have been” in past lifetimes.
I’ve been that bad, huh?
You think so
Have I?
You think so
Why?
In Earth terms you have hurt a lot of people
Why have I done that?
In Earth terms your ego and its’ standards
Sounds fascist.
That’s right
And in the bigger sense?
To experience the consequences of lack of awareness, i.e. ignorance
Why? I sometimes think that ignorance is bliss.
That’s why.
And it’s not
Not for you
For anyone?
No, not given your stated aim
Which is?
Raising levels of awareness
Whose?
Yours, and everyone else’s
But it’s not for me to concern myself with other people’s levels of awareness, is it? That’s meddling.
Depends on your motive
What is my motive?
Make your mind up.
Don’t I have a motive?
Many
So what are they?
How long have we got?
Ha ha.
Power, greed, jealousy…..
Whoa, this sounds like the seven deadly sins.
Absolutely, though they’re not really deadly.
And I’ve got the lot
And some
Do I have any good ones?
Only one
What’s that
Love
Huh?
There is only one good reason for doing anything, love. All the so called bad ones are simply the denial of love.
Why do I invent so many ways to deny love?
Only after you have invented and explored them all will you be able to return to the one, which is love. Imagine the whole. Once you seize upon any part of it, no matter how big or how small, you’re missing the rest.
The one, whole, is made up of an infinite number of parts.
And just one.
How can we ever explore an infinite number?
You cannot, that is you can not.
How?
Stop inventing them, any time you like.
I might miss something.
If you wish.
And if I don’t wish?
You’ll probably find another reason to be frightened
Why do I need to feel frightened?
To feel secure
What? Why would feeling frightened make me feel secure?
You do not know how to exist in this realm without feeling fear, it is all you have ever known here.
Can I exist here without feeling fear?
Yes
How?
Cease to care.
Sounds wrong.
That’s because you confuse care with love. You think that if you cease to care you cease to love. In fact it’s the opposite, when you cease to care you start to love.
Haven’t I even started to love yet?
Yes, you started when you started to stop caring.
When was that?
Immediately after you split from the one.
Why, how, does caring get in the way of love?
Caring assumes things matter, i.e. are matter. They are not. All the while you persist in this illusory way, you stray further from love, the one.
What about caring for the environment, loved ones, etc?
Caring also perpetuates duality. You the carer have to have something to care about. All the time you insist on caring for something you keep yourself separated from it. Don’t care, Be.
Without care things deteriorate, decompose, die.
I say again, you confuse care with love. In my eyes nothing ever deteriorates, decomposes or dies, and certainly not without being replaced (transformed, transmuted) by something equally or even more magnificent (evolution). Caring is a substitute for loving, the more you can convince yourself you care, the easier you can avoid love.
I’m not convinced.
I can tell. Let me explain further. It is not that there is anything wrong with care, it is simply that it is a consequence of love, not a substitute.
Caring is a principle, then.
No, only a consequence.
Of love.
And awareness
So caring also avoids awareness.
I didn’t say that, though it can. It is simply that whilst awareness can be cultivated, in the normal sense caring cannot.
Caring cannot be cultivated?
Not directly, only by cultivating love. You cannot do care, you can only be care, which is love. Care is love made manifest. Most people pretend care in its’ own right. This is not possible. To assume this would presuppose that you can not care. This is not possible. We are care, if we but remember, re-member. This alone is possible.

Should we go online?
Yes
Why?
Things will start to happen
I can’t figure out the format
I already have
So how do I press the right keys and buttons?
Practise. Regularly. Frequently. Just practice. I will guide you. If you let me.
Where’s my passion?
Submerged and subjugated to fear. You have only the one big passion and you don’t believe you have a right to explore it.
What is it?
Sexuality.
Your right, I don’t believe I have a right to explore that!
Why not?
Because it involves others.
Don’t you think they want to explore too?
Yes, but it can get so tacky and tawdry, and I don’t think it ought to be like that.
Then it won’t be.
Again I’m lost.
Your eternal problem thinking you’re lost!
To me it’s about raw energy, and the alchemy involved. Learning about the link between love and sex, and the transmutation into something higher.
There is nothing higher than love.
Then where can/could this path lead me?
Wherever you want to go - it is your magic carpet.
All I can do is sit here blankly thinking “I don’t know where I want to go”
Blankly?
Well, even more confusedly…